Saturday, 22 August 2015

Untitled But Something to do with time and colour.

Untitled (but something to do with time and colour).


Aleatory Verse
by

Cheryl Penn

the moments -
they’re  all around us now
incorporeal pale
residual hours
the core of a minute
functioning at full capacity
while gun shots blow doors
and the Sent Ones
attempt
to flee.
  

29 hours door to door
and 10 before that
the mind is unsettled,
tearful
blue-grey.
  
If I get to the place
where I cannot turn back
please -
come look for me
bring the Trojan horse
I’ll need a side kick.
When  trucks pull up
ochre dust rolls
along with the screams.

It was previous to this
The Mad set the code.
(dressed in yellow
on splattered pristine floors).

she didn’t know
41 minutes 36 seconds
that THIS was where it all started.
What are you willing to do
in the end -
is one love all that matters?
lights flickered when he arrived
unexpectedly
a guarantee to fail
it was Thursday
when
we discussed
possible time travel.
I always debated
I wanted to show you
you CAN go back
to the end of the beginning.
How does it work
No - (rather) did it work?
everything started
to cool once more
it may have been awkward
but
there are never clean exits.




You tried to make right
don’t wear guilt (a night-black cloak)
Back to lock-up
(more intelligence
than effort is worth).


why wasn’t there room?
The pages bind us
in one pallid volume
forever.


I’ll look for you
(I promise)
down the rabbit hole
may I bring a torch?
I never thanked you
for what you did
pulling me away from that darkness
reeling in carmine streets
unsure but aware
even The Smart would scatter.
  

he called
so loud and shrill
but the protagonist
- he wouldn’t answer
he had other fish to fry
besides; the red credits
gave nothing away
except
this was war. 

an original series?
Or a pre-recording?
The rules don’t seem to change.
Just little
fading
obscure
messages of senseless comfort.
What am I supposed to be looking at?
I can’t fix my eyes
such       a     great                                                                          distance
so you’re bringing it here?
carbon dated
grey
soft tissue
fragmented antique
I need stellar past samples
as we barter legacies.
the blow was unexpected
where is the army?
this is where you get
screaming shadows
and gyrating blows.



Would you like to hear
my initial reports?

91 years of memories
disappeared in a moment
even the distant memory of me.
Everything is forgotten in death
even the debt he owed.
They were friends
once
BUT MAN!!
the despair
we couldn’t watch the rest.


so they’re not with you?
eyes met
to settle
an unexpected outcome
loser takes all.
this time there was no heartbeat
on the other side
no orange vitals
he was dying
(and)
flickering spiders
continued to weave.
Skip a year
there was no valid name
do you NEED dark eyes
to identify the citizens
of battleships?




Barbed wire keeps them in -
ignore warnings at your peril.



why did you choose THIS path
turning your back
on unopened envelopes
you didn’t want to read
numbers on a wall
pages born in affliction
separation by existence
a traveller alone?


did you think you could view peace
eye to eye?
your discontent is your endurance.



Another yellow slip sliding away
opening doors
night trains
(If I knew you I’d remember)
1 second change
and events are forever not the same
planted dreams
before questioning
did he really cross the divide?
the walls were pale blue
(unexpectedly)
the panic button SO RED.


discover the voltage
which generates the past
cadmium power
that turned everything viole(n)t
he couldn’t understand
his own surprise.
the memories grew dim
of things left behind
a future he changed
under the influence
of deluded defiance
the skyline a silent partner
of unresolved investments.


every time we climb these steps
to a green room
(locked)
nursery rhymes
haunt the air
a staged place
three in the mirror
contributing to research
May I?
Statements of platitude
reflected in plans
you wouldn’t concede
difficult paths
you wouldn’t tread
why should you?



Its near proof
of running twisted hair
malevolent fingers
a mother taken
so long ago
softly falling tears
no protection
you CAN be a daughter again.
and The Traitor
he secured our future
we thought was our own.
Back there we couldn’t loose him
we overload and break
again
and again
is this the prediction
the resetting
the unexpected change?
We had to leave him there
in rooms on fire
after all that
-   did we lose?
-    


vulnerable to all
I am the clock
Look on my face
yes, I did everything for you
you wanted
and watched and demanded
we succumbed
you
You had NO control.


That large glass chronometer
a great space
Gothic
and hollow
chandeliers of missed opportunity.
Red stuffed armchairs
I was too slow
light through a closing door
scratched out faces
a petrified corpse
no blue Danube enterprise.



(la-la-la-la-LA-LA-La-la).



He was manipulating the past
to set the present
a call from The Institution
slamming doors
extinguished light
runners set for failure.
there is something
you’re not saying
the cycle must happen
its time to unwind
to repeat and conquer
he was in this from the beginning
a real horror story
set in motion
but those participating
always pretending
always PLAYACTING.
  


they buy the truth
for cheap
a catapult
a life just like yours
that never ends
they needed  keys
to the game of death
the site of all action
and she?
she never stopped not saying
all the words she meant.

Why cant we just anticipate
the beauty
of an uncertain future?
Destroying the world to save
one person you love -
is that what matters?
his trip was one way.
And Us?

We all out of time.

Time flies past
minutes on a airborne clock
will it work out for me?
nothing functions
with only 2 minutes to go.

how much do you want it?
its so close
so close
its fragrance overpowers.

(its a risk always
I wouldn’t even touch it
said Alice
from inside the Trojan Horse).

Friday, 14 August 2015

In Cemeteries (Cheryl Penn)


In Cemeteries 

what are you doing here?
why did you come?
do you want the true Truth?
the irony of upside down?
the nature of our world?
Its what every character says
before they die
just ANOTHER
secret story. 


visions and war, flags
burdened waters
you will help me?
I plead the mercy of a King.
your fate is your design
no one
to guide me through

off world dreams.


no other serious applicants -
and therein lies our future -
there are no other
candidates
for dust to dust
except us,
humanity.


he killed for her
he loved her
and she him.
BUT the gaping hole
in his heart
he never saw that coming.
she floated
to the top
of her secrets
Open your ears
they NEVER stop hearing
there’s a world in your world
dwellings
this place joined
here
to
there.


this is
the music of my head
I heard it
and suspected
you heard it too
the only thing of value
I could have written
meeting again and again
in different ages
it is not yours or mine,
it is ours.


Out you come
the biggest mistake
of my life
I was worried
before I decided -
I’ve seen too much of the world
- death
been too long a slave
the pain is strong (so strong)
how can we be friends?


what do you need?
what are you reading?
Old letters
the plot has taken
a sensual turn
a ghost writer
a mystery.

the explosion
the music of my dream
the fragment
that killed me
I fell
over the bridge
hitting the water
running
the manuscript drowned.


belief like fear
climbing rocks
in one direction
headed two ways.
Forces remaking
time and space
continue
after we perish
moment to moment
we understand
a new potential direction

is this possible?



tombstones
set in cherry blossoms
new life
sweeping the dead.

the silence between the notes
the best sound of all.

death
its an old recording -
honestly?
He cant stop listening to life
a symphony of beauty
a handful of copies
I know I know it
4 days of paradise
what were the chances
she still breathed here?
its cold among the granite.


There WAS a choice
continue as planned -
or die.


Most of the report
was destroyed
If I help it will be worth the war
take me to the secret garden
where weather is whether
the trip is fall.
A hunger in their hearts
for what?
for more.

you need to rest
let me concoct
the secrets of death
vaulted relationships  
past lives
laughing
at each other
and yet,
I cant explain
when I opened
that door
I knew your secrets.

While the past may call
with enchantments
of Sirens
a coward chooses
the weak way
the secrets of his heart
known to all
except himself.
touch the controls
reveal the sepulchers
if the tides keep rising
the world will be under water
in 50 days
so - that’s the secret?
throw the bones
see the seer
through here
its not what you’re used to
but
I think you will like it.


Why did you cover for me?
Freedom?
the seductive nature of civilization?
what should we do with you?
 - The problem you create
 - is a celestial problem.
Intriguing that
beneath
there are thoughts
that
terrify (Concord),
The Truth is
what happened
to the agent of Discord?


Chalice on a grave
I found her,
looking for the answers
take over,
Introduce our tribe
I was supposed  
to be at war
a minefield of secrets
the setting sun
made EVERYTHING
nervous.

did you know the secret of him?
no,
but it wouldn’t have mattered
it was the first time
I was shown kindness.


The sobbing
the holding
the secret trade.
the blossoms fall
and you look lovely.
his life in video
and the coward didn’t know.
What are you doing in my room?
Reading my books,
pinching my pockets
a disappointing start.
I am ( . . . . .)
you do NOT wish to cross me.


bare chested
he
f
e
l
l
a victim
of eternity
PLEASE DON’T SHOOT
as he flew
and we set sail
as soft as lead
an addition to our crew.


No bridge!
FOCUS!
the gap
the yaw
stay with me
I wont let you go
as we cross
the abyss
and haul a stowaway
from his hiding
a shot
machine guns
steady - solid - fire
I have you
I will hold you
as we set sail
like never before.


Are you leaving?
Yes!
Tidal Styx
To the land of the dead.
I have better things
to do
than turn to dust
this
planet is flying
and the castle glowering
robbing a man
of everything.

//How do you know about
Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn//?
Kok Terek and Cancer Ward
a single drop
in a limitless
Anguish Ocean.


in my life
it began again
 - wait!
it was all
so clear a minute ago -
the secrets are slipping away
a gulf between these bridges
transcendence of language
what are you doing?
they’ve found us!

Your heart is slower
than ours
its comforting
what time is it??
I’ve heard a melody
grab a pen
a dream
a nightmare café
no way out
the waitresses
the same face
not like any I’ve ever seen.

The mark in his neck,
the scar
it was a secret
the mountain way
a mirror
and for the first time
I was allowed to see
who I was
and who I might become.
I.E.
Their last hope
of genetically modified support.

Who will walk you through
the details of your questions/
That closed door -
THAT was what death would do.


Have you ANY idea what time it is -
I’ve invested for 12 years
you’ve had your fun
put an end to this game
why are you doing this?
the better question -
what have you done to deserve this -
I didn’t mean to hurt you
sorry
your penance is too late
     he sends his love.
     O the perfect horror.



Book made for
An Encyclopedia of Everything - The Expanded Version,
May 2015.

A series of chapbooks of 9 chapbook and 1 book. 
Online Version available on:

Photographs  courtesy of Marie Wintzer (Japan) taken in Yanaka cemetery, Tokyo.